Journal Entry of Good-bye
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I will not forget you, I have your name carved on my palm....Isaiah 49
I will never forget how I feel at this moment. Am I even alive?
I am supposed to be holding you forever -protecting you. I know in so many ways I am protecting you.
From a life where you cannot be offered the best-and you my child deserve the best.
I feel empty. Empty womb. Empty heart. Empty arms.
Sometimes I feel a little bubble in my belly and for an instant I think it is my baby entertaining me again. Then the realization comes.
You sleep so peacefully now. You will not remember this moment, but I shall never forget.
No other will ever replace you. I will always hold special place in my heart with your name etched on it. You are my firstborn, my love.
Sometimes a mother must sacrifice for the sake of her child - give up her own heart. You are my heart, little one.
Forgive me, my child, for not being what you needed. Know always, that I love you!
Yes, I will see you again soon, but will your remember me? Will you know who I am? Maybe it is best you forget until you are old enough to understand. I will wait for that understanding my baby. I will wait forever for your love.
I feel as if I am slowly dying.
I am willing to give up my life for you,
but I would never take yours.
For this reason, I chose adoption.
? 2000 Skye Hardwick
Birthmother to Emily, November 1998~Open adoption
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