BreakThrough took its first breath just shortly after my first-born son's. With the adoption caseworker and my family waiting outside my hospital room, I placed my newborn son on the bed and knelt beside him.
My body, still weak from labor, shook uncontrollably against the weight of making a choice. In a moment of complete clarity, I realized, I could not possibly decide. And so I did the only thing I knew to do that day. I gently lifted my son up from the bed, held him into the air, and surrendered him to God. Putting my son and my decision in God's Hands was the only way I could ensure that the "right" choice was made.
Many birth mothers talk of a "sense of peace" that they experience. I believe in that peace. On that day I also prayed this:
"Father, I don't know what to do. But I know that you have a plan. Just help me find peace in relinquishing my son and I can do it." Immediately that day I felt at peace for the first time, though the choice was nearly impossible to accept. I clung to my baby boy and cried my heart out, knowing that I would choose adoption. I asked of God one other thing that day.
"If I do this, please let there be a profound purpose in it. I don't know if I can make a covenant with you, but if I can, let it be this ~ that You will use this in my life."
Little did I know that at that very moment BreakThrough was conceived.
BreakThrough, which began as a small whispered prayer from the breaking heart of a fifteen-year-old girl, is now a non-profit organization which stands to explore, unite, and nurture the spirits and hearts of those traveling adoption's journey.
Ten years in the making, BreakThrough will emerge as a live two-day event in San Diego California, in the summer of 2002.There is no single platform for BreakThrough. However you are affected by adoption you will find a speaker, a workshop, and many others just like you. BreakThrough is for those who are seeking answers and information as well as understanding, validation, and support. Our aim is to seek out the heart and spirit of many of the issues each of us face, and to encourage individuality.
BreakThrough is unique because we plan to incorporate, explore, and nurture the very personal, core elements of what each of us bring, individually, spiritually, and emotionally to our adoptions. The strength of our Spirits and our Journey towards Wholeness.
Where voices are heard and hearts are united. Where experience and spirit meet as one. Where we begin to know ourselves in ways that allow us to understand one another. Where the force of unity harnesses a great compassion. Where we are no longer defined by our roles, but by who we are in them.For information on how you can take part in BreakThrough LIVE visit our website!
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